theses days

job searching:
lists:

*entered project for MTA subway station
Dondi's yard...

*entered Hearts in "Cinema Vérité"-
Iran International Film Festival 15-19 October

*compiled the never ending CV

*getting really good at driving people away,
maybe because i'm not painting.

*making press kits and wedding invitations.

*trying to get rehydrated

*wishing c. wasnt at a funeral
that i was supposed to go with her to.

*i really dont like fighting,
i think in the intro to mein kampf i wrote
something to the effect of "even the word
WAR makes me want people dead, what kind
of complex is that one?"

it scratches out the martyr, and jesus complexes, but leads me to think....

dictator/director. (thanks francis)

the movie.

Hearts of Darkness: A Painter's Apocalypse. from sh on Vimeo.

also can be seen in the what cannes got link.

the short and long of it.

finally i have the video up on the web, for the nerds: vimeo allowed my perfect picture and sound res.
but now its here... the amount of time i spent on this video; the ARGUMENTS that took place, and if argument is any allowance for disgust then i hope argument made you happy beacause it gets ill, dead babies, dead chillums ain't cool. so:


stop it with the cluster bombs and shallow hull landmines. be careful amongst camoflage im wrenching here...

heres the video complete (nerds hook it up...)
(<3sh)

if that dont work go here:

http://vimeo.com/913356/

thanks. love. famiglia.

rippenest town.

so im back, b******* or b***** didnt happen. im back home 150 ft are done and im only 15 minutes into the film.
been to cannes, red cahpet, expensive suits, amazing wife, eye makeup, nrml people oclock, paparazzi.

dennis hopper supposedly has one copy of "hearts of darkness:a painter's apocalypse."
which will be posted here as soon as the world premiere status is listed.

i guess the painting and my life has taken routes unseen, and i am rafting that river as it unfolds, i think next semester will be finshing, i painted a few times since, but i need to finish FINISH this project, video, installation, dance, music and all. and i know i can, ive gotten through the hardest scenes, except brando stagediving into kipling, but nonetheless, i can do this painting, i have the personal wearwithall to compete, whoever thought theyd see me with a superawesomemodel wife and a 5000 dollar handmade parisian suit... well cannes did, now shut up and finish the painting.

check: australian newspaper
italian magazine
dennis hopper's subconscious
selfdenial/reprisal
bank account.